In this queer contemporary YA, perfect for fans of Becky Albertalli and This Is Kind of an Epic Love Story, Nandan’s perfect plan for junior year goes awry after he hooks up with a guy for the first time.

Nandan’s got a plan to make his junior year perfect, but hooking up with his friend Dave isn’t part of it—especially because Nandan has never been into guys.

Still, Nandan’s willing to give a relationship with him a shot. But the more his anxiety grows about what his sexuality means for himself, his friends, and his social life, the more he wonders whether he can just take it all back.

Is breaking up with Dave—the only person who’s ever really gotten him—worth feeling “normal” again?

• Friends to Lovers: Nandan just wanted a perfect junior year. He didn’t plan on exploring a relationship with his friend Dave, the one person who seems to understand his anxiety.
• Bicurious Awakening: One hookup is all it takes to unravel everything Nandan thought he knew about himself. He’s only ever liked girls... right?
• MM Romance: Follows the funny, awkward, and heartfelt journey of Nandan and Dave as they navigate their feelings and their first time together.
• Coming of Age: A deeply authentic story that tackles the pressures of high school, friendship, and the desperate need to feel "normal" in a world that feels anything but.